My First Thought

Hello. Welcome to my blog. 

I should start my first blog by telling you who I am, right? But, you see as soon as I wrote the words, "I am", I stopped, my fingers dancing over the letters not knowing what to say because I don't. Not because I am in the middle of some kind of an identity crisis, well maybe I am, but mostly because, I have yet to discover what defines me.

So, let's just stay with, I am Maahi Gupta, a teenager, finally coming out. We'll See how this introduction evolves over the next blogs.

Someone told me that the best way to put your thoughts, beliefs, ideas and words out is to just do it. Sounds a bit lame, I know, but then I thought about it and I realized that the person was right, because I've seen, that for as long as I keep thinking about even the most tiniest of things, I find myself turning more and more reluctant towards doing it.

Not too long ago, I was a part of a social media website, and let's just Say I was pretty involved, posting pictures, constantly talking to people and all that jazz. So, eventually this Internet popularity of getting 200 likes and 50+ comments within a day got so much to my head that I got overwhelmed; and not in the good way.

I took a decision then, I decided to go out of that place, just away from it all. I had my own reasons to do what I did,which were just that I wanted to give myself a break and get in touch with the real things again.

I don't know what the 'real' things are, but I do know that I am most likely to find them when I am outside this.

Now that I am here, typing out things that I had no clue I was ever going to, I realize that this is the Internet. A place where I don't analyze every centimeter of Sam's latest picture and no one is there to tell me how this is the correct filter or not, this is the place where I see nobody, know nobody and yet I feel closer to somebody. Maybe its myself. Maybe its my thoughts. Whatever it is, I'm glad to have found it.

I'm writing this blog so that all the things that I think about and have absolutely no relevance to what is happening around me can be put out there. So that, maybe, someone in the world who is overwhelmed with their own problems gets a chance to take a break and peak into my thoughts a bit.

Maybe, I won't be so conflicted anymore.